it was an akward silent that filled the room.
life is just so unfair, out of all, i was the unlucky one.
what luck, bruises here and there.
sometimes i just feel worthless and plain useless, you get what i mean?
i can't even defend myself, maybe because i'm too kind that is why people take advantage of me.

life has been hard on me and boyfriend. really2 hard.
i really pity you, dear. you've been tiring yourself out just to spend most memorable nights with me.
though, the umpteen fights and arguements, i still won't leave you stranded alone and sometimes, it might be the smallest, littlest thing that seems un-important to you but it really does matter to me.

i really hope you take in what papa said seriously cause i don't want to be clapping with one hand at the end of this fairytale.

i love you, baby.
so much and just too much that sometimes its just too hard for me to explain everything.


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finally,
lunchtime!
what a day,
i took three days off and being in the office really sucks.
today,
only two of my colleagues are working excluding my boss.

yesterday,
fought with bf.
henley leh,
small matter make big fuss.

this september,
kak zura is going to israel for work purposes.
so,
she won't be here for my birthday.
shucks*

flashback:
bf really is a different person compared to the last time we were together.
he grew from a shy person to an outgoing one,
and from the typical, "tak-layan-kiesha" person to the "24 hours must layan"
that is why i love him so much.

i'm going for a smoke break now,
till next time.

ps: mum bought me a Bvalgari ring which cost $1200/- and i got a genuine Guess bag from kak azza
bf pulak, upgrade his hp to LG Secret.



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baba hitam kambing,
ada tak bulu? haha*

ok, random sangat-sangat.
i just got back from lunch break,
boss haven't masuk so,
still got free time.
credits to mariah for the job,
i so love, love you. [capital L]

dewi is at her desk,
minding her own business.
pfft*
baby,
still sleeping at home i guess.

latest buzz,
baby's ex,
dah masuk. BOO-YAH!
and ya,
im still staying over bf's but his aunty have so,
no freedom.
its been awhile since we .. ehem* ((:
and dewi's husband dah masuk jugak.

oh, ya.
i went sheesha-ing at clarke quay with kak zura at this arabic place.
smoke and fly, baby. smoke and fly.
then we had white wine ..
unfortunately that day, attica closed so, we headed home.

i finally got that hokkien mee i craved for.
and, daddy's going for an operation next friday.



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hello.
i'm now at my house at thomson and i just got hold of the computer.
ratna's computer crashed so if i have the urge to use the computer,
kene lah balik thomson.
its exactly one month dah i tak balik sini, maklumlah,
duduk dengan bf kan, nak seperate pon macam susah gitu.

lets see the latest updates.

13 05 09
ok,
today gadoh dgn bf uh.
i prefer to be silent for awhile.
macam ape seh,
his ex msg saying that last long and bla bla bla. (tak perlu)
please leh,
kalau kau jealous just cakap.
after all, his ex memang gitu,
its like all dier punya ex pon she jealous want.
so, buto miskin lor. oops*
bf pon, gatal pergi reply msg dier.

15 05 09
i'm lying here on the bed.
it feels strange not having bf by my side.
i'm in malaysia (on holidays) while bf is at home.
i miss baby badly!
why are you the only person that couldn't stand to part with?
why is my love for you that strong? haiy*
next time tak nak go holiday uh, unless bf ader. hehe*

ok,
my journey to terrenganu has begun.
its proclaimed to be a 10 hour journey.
(my butt will be punctured the soonest we arrive)
i just woke up from a deep slumber after breakfast.
location: mersing.
i think my period has come because i really don't feel comfortable and its really getting quite floppy down there.
oh, god.
now i'm feeling nausea.
currently roaming in the straits of mersing.
graveyards here and there, scary.

basically, thats the latest scoop uh.
so mendak that i blog at hp then transfer at blog.
hehe*
i'm starting work tomorrow with ratna and qiu.
at first bf tak kasi work, then after much consideration,
baru bf kasi greenlight.



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its been awhile since i've updated my blog.
well,
i won't be pretty much active in blogging anymore.

things have happened recently,
i'm currently staying with bf. (:
and my family has just shifted again to a terrace at upper thomson.
about the upper serangoon house,
lets just say, my parents were cheated by some professional con bitch.

this thursday,
i'll be going of to malaysia for my very own holiday. haha*
everyday is a holiday for me. pfft*
first terengganu then kuala lumpur.
it'll be awesome! shopping till i drop!
but unfortunately i have to leave baby alone.
so sedih.
[don't worry, dear. i'll get you something there.]

btw,
somethings about baby is still bothering me. hmm*



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